Gradually I walk off the lethargy and return refreshed convinced that spring will come but, for now, I need to savor this season. I need to weather this winter of endings. I need to remember that we don't always get what we want but we can always appreciate what we're given. And, while some people in my life may not be able to love me as much as I would like, I can continue to love them and learn to love myself unconditionally. And, I can hold fast to my deep conviction that love is the only thing that holds our world together.
I return to John O'Donohue's beautiful call to love:
"In love, you grow and come home to your self. When you learn to love and to let your self be loved, you come home to the hearth of your own spirit. You are warm and sheltered. ... Love begins with paying attention to others, with an act of gracious self-forgetting. This is the condition in which we grow."So I recommit myself to paying self-forgetting attention to those I love ... and to paying self-remembering attention to my own spirit. I relax into this season of endings knowing that "This, too, shall pass" but the lessons we learn are with us forever. And, I remember a friend's words: "Isn't life interesting~! The paths we choose, the challenges we face, the hardships we endure and the joy of living. They are all connected."
For now, this is enough ... this and remembering that spring always comes.