Having a blog of many years is somewhat like having a friend who taps you on the shoulder and says, "Remember when ... " In this case, the friend is my own self from ten years ago ... a rather weird sensation.
Yesterday was the last full day of the ramble through Northern California and the song playing through my brain is, "What's it all about, Alfie?" ... one old enough that only a few of you will connect with it. Trying to make sense of the past ten days ... the what, the why, and the what might have been.
Yesterday morning found me driving through Scott Valley in Siskiyou County ... a movie-setting, placid, green valley surrounded by snow-tipped mountains which is also part of the proposed State of Jefferson (originally proposed in 1941, two months before Pearl Harbor).
On an off-the-beaten path excursion, I passed two men standing in conversation in the driveway of an isolated ranch house surrounded by fields of green. Almost an hour later, after wandering through a bit of the deep peace of this valley, they were still there, still in conversation. I wondered who I would be if my life had dropped me into this utopian valley. I can almost understand the tendency to want to break away, protect the peaceful perfection, wall out the world. Later, I stopped at a gas station and stepped into the midst of a conversation about Costco. When I asked about this bit of paradise, I heard about the isolation, the cost of living, the lack of meaningful work, and an admission that it was paradise ... but with a price.
On down the road, I stopped in the historic town of Etna where I found this mural.
The land of Siskiyou ... beaver valley ... "Rough and Ready" ... "Aetna Mills" ... "Etna" ... Many names but one land of majestic mountains, pristine rivers and lakes. Sparkling streams flow through meadows filled with life. Once abundant with beaver, this beautiful valley still inhabits bear, mountain lion, deer, spectacular bird life, and other wildlife native to this land. Let us embrace it's beauty. "Ayukii" & "Welcome"
In the blog post from 2011, I realized that I was head over heels in love with my life. A wonderful reminder at the end of this ten days of traveling through California to realize I am still in love with my life and immensely grateful to have the health and resources to make this journey.
The ending question is one I want to remember to ask every day: "How am I wonderful, joyful and grateful to be alive?" I hope you will also.
|Victorian in Etna|
"How are You Wonderful?" ... posted May 28, 2011
Yesterday was an anniversary, one of those calendar days laden with memories that pull us back into past times. I wondered if it would be a melancholy day but it dawned one of those clear-blue-sky days with warm sunshine, cool breezes and promises of delight ... a perfect day.
It can seem life-changing when we decide not to allow the negative to be our focus.ReplyDelete
What a great way you phrased that question.
Fabulous post! Thanks for the inspiration, and the joy, and for sharing it so graciously!ReplyDelete
Love the image too!
And if you're starting that club... count me in!
Wonderful post! I can't yet say I'm "head over heels in love with my life", but at least I am now able to see that exciting possibility is within reach. I realize I must be cautious to not surround myself with only those who want to bond over the problems we face as recent widows. I think that's a very important statement for me to read this morning. Thank you!ReplyDelete
Dianne ... I am very sorry for your loss ... I know how it divides life into before and after. It's important to let ourselves be comforted by our friends without slipping into the identity of "poor widow." Sounds like you are making progress. Best wishes on your journey.ReplyDelete
Thanks Joyce, very engaging post. It's amazing how moods change and inspiration comes seemingly from out of nowhere or out of the depths of our subconscious triggered by events or things we experience throughout the day.ReplyDelete
You inspire and delight me, as do your images. Count me in the Head Over Heels in Love with My Life Club!ReplyDelete
Becky... I nominate you for president!!ReplyDelete