Saturday, February 20, 2010
New Operating System - Principle #6
6. My inner awareness is always evolving: Where do I stand right now? How far have I come on my chosen path? Great questions. If only I had answers. I think my awareness is growing but not enough yet to give me clarity. A new project has dropped into my lap and it has many bright lights shining from it. But, now I'm filled with doubt about whether it's "right" ... whether I'm right for it ... whether it might take up too much of my time ... whether it's really aligned with my chosen path ... whether I even know my chosen path.
The spinning in my head sounds like a heavy cart with loose metal wheels traveling over an uneven concrete floor. One of my friends tells me I need to get clear about my "North Star" and recommended that I unplug and go into silence for a few days and let the answer emerge rather than trying to focus my thinking and squeeze sense out of it. Sounds right so for the next few days I'm limiting my online time to a couple of hours at night and will spend the rest of the time making art, meditating, walking and listening.
During that time I will try to pay attention to my awareness as Chopra guides, "not as a stream of thoughts but as the potential for becoming who I want to be. I will look at my limitations and boundaries with the intention of expanding beyond them."
I'm pretty sure something will happen during this time since I'm already getting inklings. This afternoon as I was looking through my box of images that I use for collage work, I found a piece of an article on the back of an image. The article was about "hoshin" ... a strategic planning process introduced by W. Edwards Deming. These words were highlighted: Hoshin, a Japanese word roughly meaning both internal compass and personal North Star, almost always starts with a question, and built into the process is the assumption that you have the answers inside you. You want to choose a question that really excites you, where you would feel phenomenal if you woke up living the answer to that question.
About the image: Isn't it interesting that this star isn't a bright beacon in the sky but a far more subtle, almost buried, star that I only saw by being aware of the patterns in the sand at my feet?